How I Came To Do This Work…

Over 10 years ago, it took everything in me to get up in the mornings. For months, I struggled to be an active participant in life. I grew angry and resentful. The only thing I looked forward to each and every day was getting back into bed. My marriage was slowly falling apart. I became unfulfilled in my role as a mother. I was easily irritated and couldn’t deal anymore. I hated myself for it. I became really great at masking my pain behind perfection and over-achievement. I started several businesses and took on loads of projects. I spent less time at home and more time on myself. I became obsessed with achieving my goals. 

With no idea where or how to start, I began to pray. I prayed for God to show me the way. I prayed to a God I was angry at. A God I was unsure I believed in. So much pain and anger to work through. I had to learn to say yes to God and to myself, each and every day. I had to learn to surrender all control which was probably the hardest thing of all. I learned to really trust and believe that I was worthy and loved. 

What I discovered in my healing was that my perfectionism was masked pain, rooted in rejection. And, that my striving was rooted in this idea that if I worked hard enough to achieve perfection, in all areas of my life, then and only then would I experience true joy. None of what I’ve lived through was for nothing. Instead, it was infused with great meaning and purpose. It has brought me to you.